it's so cold. i'm not ready for this! i don't even own a pair of gloves ... yet. i went outside tonight in boots, jeans, a scarf, sweater, and jacket and promptly turned around and went back inside. i have a craving to see the stars.
another long and stimulating monday done. i got up early this morning to go to the store, since i ran out of some essential food over the weekend and didn't have any yogurt or passable breakfast food, not even bread. i awkwardly got there just before it opened and was surprised to see that i wasn't the only one waiting at 9.00 for fakta to open its doors. a woman walked by - everyone is wearing boots, gloves, and wool coats now - and smirked, "is there a sale?" no, just a bunch of hungry neighbors. grocery stores are closed on sundays.
on wednesday i'm going to spain. that will be different. i have no idea what to expect except a different kind of confusion.
i've been thinking a lot lately about how i feel like everything in my life, that is to say, the total of things which i am experiencing or have experienced, is disconnected and, thus, disorienting. but i'm not the only one who feels like this; our whole society is disparate and disengaged - from what, i don't know. but søren kierkegaard was writing about this in the 1800s, and that reassures me. even in 1847 he wrote about a society in which the majority of individuals were disengaged from their true selves. and we think we have come so far!